Just last night I was feeding Caleb and Tote was heading down to his office to get some work done. He said "I'll be right back to put him to bed". We always give kisses and put him to bed together or at least make sure he has said goodnight before I put him down. Just the way that he said that threw my mind into what this time might look like had my burns been worse than they were or had Caleb been delivered early as we feared.
For those of you who don't know, I was severely burned in April when I was 9 months pregnant with Caleb. We feared that he would come early before I had a chance to heal and that I would not be able to care for him. It was so hard and humbling to not be able to care for myself during those weeks, but by far the hardest thing that I have ever dealt with in my entire life was to not be able to care for Sammy. I wasn't able to get him up in the morning, put him to bed or naps, get his meals, change his diaper, dress him, hold him or even hug him. It tore me up inside! I can't imagine if Caleb had been born during all of that and I wasn't able to hold my baby or nurse him!
God is so good!!!! We took the last bandage off the day before Caleb arrived! He is healthy and the happiest little sweetheart!! I can nurse him and care for him and just be a mommy to him and to Sammy. I can't express how grateful I am for that blessing! I love being their mommy!!
That moment last night just made me reflect on how things could have been and how thankful we are for God's healing and provision during such a rough time!
For those of you who don't know, I was severely burned in April when I was 9 months pregnant with Caleb. We feared that he would come early before I had a chance to heal and that I would not be able to care for him. It was so hard and humbling to not be able to care for myself during those weeks, but by far the hardest thing that I have ever dealt with in my entire life was to not be able to care for Sammy. I wasn't able to get him up in the morning, put him to bed or naps, get his meals, change his diaper, dress him, hold him or even hug him. It tore me up inside! I can't imagine if Caleb had been born during all of that and I wasn't able to hold my baby or nurse him!
God is so good!!!! We took the last bandage off the day before Caleb arrived! He is healthy and the happiest little sweetheart!! I can nurse him and care for him and just be a mommy to him and to Sammy. I can't express how grateful I am for that blessing! I love being their mommy!!
That moment last night just made me reflect on how things could have been and how thankful we are for God's healing and provision during such a rough time!
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That's a great post! I love being able to get a glimps of your daily life and your thoughts.
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